God? Are you there? Can you hear me?
I hate when I do this. When I get "busy."
I hate when I walk away. When I stop listening.
My soul longs for you and I ignore it. My soul years for you and I shut it up.
It's not that I've been bad about seeking you - I just haven't period recently.
I look for answers from you- but I don't have/take the time to listen. I just try to use you.
And I wonder why I hate my life as of late!
So I've become what I despise.
I miss you. I miss being close to you. I miss our fellowship.
Do you hate me? Are you disappointed? I feel like you are because I've been listening to the lies that tell me so. You have reason to, you know. Can you forgive me - again?
I don't know where to go. Where to start.
And yet - I feel like this is it. Like now- finally on my knees - I have started when I didn't know how to begin.
So here I am.
Just a human. Standing before her God. Asking if another chance is possible.
Will you forgive me again? Will you hold it against me?
*enters Hope*
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