Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Why Worry...? Just Trust.

I'm almost ashamed to admit - I'm a worrier. I stress about things - a lot. And when I'm not stressing - I'm stressing about what's going to go wrong next. It's a very bad habit.
Tonight as I was reading my devotion, I was reading about Isaac and Rebekah. Their story always made me smile. It seems so hopeful to me - how they began. As I pondered their story, I began to think about my own life. So much seems to be going on right now. I've gotten to the point where I feel very overwhelmed and, well, stressed. As I was contemplating this, I began to wonder why I was stressing. "Why can't I just let life be good," I asked myself "why do I have to make it stressful?" Even my little daily jump start this morning was about how "God can handle any problem - and that includes yours." I began to laugh at myself. Why worry when I can trust? Why stress when I know that the God of all - has me in His care and cares for me? Too often I get caught in the "big picture" of life as a whole and become overwhelmed that I forget God and I miss living in the moment. It steals my joy. As I continued thinking, God reminded me of one of my FAVORITE passages of scripture and I just wanted to take a second to share it with you. I hope it's as encouraging to you as it is to me! Love in Him, Meag

"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:25-34

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Value in a Reflection

Katie Maurice... It makes me smile whenever I think of this name. She's a sweet, spunky young girl with bright red hair who's incredibly understanding. She knows just how to listen- probably better than anyone you've ever met. When you laugh - she laughs; when you cry - she cries; when you hurt she hurts with you. Often I've found myself envying her sweet ways and personality.

Katie's my oldest friend. I met her when I was about 8 or 9 and we've never lost touch. Proverbs 17:17 says "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity." Katie's definitely been there with me through everything. Our conversations are filled with her challenges to better myself, hold on, or straighten up. Just like anyone else - she's not perfect but her ability to empathize is incomparable and her honesty is sometimes brutal in its truthfulness. Sometimes this is what I need - sometimes it isn't. Her counsel can range from Biblical - to an echo reinforcing my deepest fears. Katie has the ability to build me up or tear me down better than anyone I know. She knows everything about me (all my mess and success)and has no qualms about telling me just what she thinks. Sometimes all I want to do is get her to shut up!

But there's something strange about Katie. Through all her encouragement and consolation - sometimes, when I look in her eyes, what I see scares me. She has an intensity about her that is close to unfathomable. When I look in her eyes and see them darken... when she looks back at me and I know she knows more than I realized... it all but steals my breath. It's almost as if sharing something with her intensifies the experience or emotion I was feeling to begin with. It's almost as if she's telling me "I know you and I can make or break you at my will."
Please don't think ill of her for this! The thing is - she's right. She can.

If there's anything I've learned from Katie it's the dangers of listening to others for my self worth. But more than that- she hasn't just taught me the dangers of listening to others for my self worth - she's teaching me the dangers of listening to ME for my self worth. The reason I know Katie can make or break me faster than anyone is because Katie Maurice, is me.

"I used to pretend that my reflection... was another little girl. I called her Katie Maurice..." ~Anne (from Anne of Green Gables ch. 8)

Friday, January 14, 2011

Second Impressions

Haha. Wow... You know that really guilty feeling you get when you have something happen, you make a snap judgement, and you come to find out later that you're wrong? Not the best feeling in the world (though it can be relieving if you were under a bad impression and it was overturned by a good one.)
I started working a new job and didn't get off on the best foot when I met my immediate supervisor (via miscommunication). I thought is was going to be a mess and I was going to have an awful semester all because of one aspect of my job that I couldn't escape without making a scene.
Thank God for second impressions! I came into work this morning determined to make the best of it despite my poor footing and my supervisor seemed to not remember a thing about my first day. She may still not be the easiest person I work for, but I've come to realize that I made a bad choice when I decided to snap judge and become defensive instead of taking it to the Lord and taking a deep breath.
I firmly believe that if I would stop being so difficult and start learning from other's experiences - maybe I wouldn't run into half the trouble I do! So I share this in hopes that it is helpful or encouraging to you. If not - at least you got a laugh out of my rash faux pas. ;)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

God is Good

Hey! Well... It's been a while, but don't hate me! I was out of country over Christmas break!

I learned so much and continue to be challenged as I have gotten back and am getting back into the swing of things. Life seem crazy and hectic but promising and calm at the same time. Yes - I realize that's contradictory. I've been going through and continue to go through things that have seemed overwhelming. I've been looking at a lot of changes in a short period of time and I've gotten scared. But when I take a second to slow down, I'm being reminded that my strength- or at least any that I have - comes from God - and soley from Him. You see, sometime's I'm guilty of getting short sighted and I forget God. Sometime's I'm guilty of getting to far sighted and being overwhelmed and I forget God. Sometimes I say I'm praying about it - but I don't truly give it up. How many things have I laid at His feet - only to take them righ tback up when I "left" His presence? How many times have I whined about fighting before I ever actually fought? How many times have I given up before starting and thought I'd be happier if I just quit? How many times have I made myself the victim and God the distant guy in the sky who has too much to worry about to notice me? How many times have I sold myslef short because I listened to Satan instead of listening to God - then blamed God for "not speaking louder than Satan" when in actuality - I'm just not taking time to listen? The answer to all of these, unfortunately, is too often.
Thankfully, God brought a friend back into my life who has offered to team up in accountability with me. I am super excited and greatly look forward to this alliance and re-established friendship. My biggest thing right now is just remembering this - God is good. God is many things and I am thankful for all of them and they are all wonderful. But right now - my focus is working on the daily consciousness that God is good. :) When life is hard- God id good. When life is crazy - God is good. When life is wonderful - God is good. When life just is - God id good. God isn't good because of circumstances - and God isn't good sheerly despite circumstance. God is just... good. And he loves me. And He loves you.
I just wanted to share what I've been working on (or am begining to start working on)in hopes that maybe it would encourage you too. Then I wanted to challenge you a little too: where's God working on you? One thing I've learned and it's gone from my head to my heart - God is active - and if you're not - then you might just want to get to work on that. God is wonderful despite our awareness of it - but it's a lot more helpful/useful if we'd wake ourselves up and be intentionally conscoius of what God's up to.
So - with that, I wish you a happy new year. May it be one in which God draws you closer than ever and reveals Himself in wonderful new ways to you and grows your faith and trust to a whole new level!

In Him,

Meag

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Stay in the Castle

While you're probably rolling your eyes and thinking "she has an amazing, wonderful, and godly boyfriend...!" (and you're dead on!) that doesn't mean I wasn't ever single. I, like any girl I imagine, read story after story, account after account, and book after book, anything I could get my hands on to encourage myself that it was worth the wait I was putting myself through. This is one of those stories. It's short and sweet - hits to the core and is a great boost. I'm not "there" yet, but for what I know of both sides (single and not-so-single) - it's DEFINITELY worth the wait! Hope this encourages you as much as it did/does me!
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Once upon a time, there was a princess that lived in a beautiful palace overlooking a simple but worldly village. She lived in the castle with her Father, the King, and a handful of faithful servants. Her Father doted over her, supplying her every need and most all of her wants. Over the years, she blossomed into a beautiful teenage girl, quick-witted, full of laughter, and always obedient – but increasingly lonely
Often, late at night, she would gaze from the window of her room, high in the castle wall, watching the people far away in the streets below. She would lean towards the gaiety, straining, past the sounds of music and laughter to try and pick out the words of the young people. No sad, lonely sounds ever reached her ears, and she began to believe that they must be the happiest people in the kingdom.
“Father?” she asked one evening as they worked together on what he called her preparation. “Do you think that perhaps I might one evening be allowed to attend one of the festivals at the village? Perhaps just for a short time?”
The old, wise King laid aside the Book of Lessons and looked upon his daughter with compassion, and concern. “My child , the village below is a worldly place full of sad people. The sound of merriment that you sometimes hear is their attempt to drown out the emptiness and despair of their lives. It is best that you stay in the castle.”
Though she loved her Father, it was not the answer she wished.
“but Father, how will I ever meet… I mean… someday I would like to… Oh Father, you are so good to me, and I do so love it here, but at times I get so lonely!”
The King sat back in his chair, his eyes suddenly seeing his daughter not as the little girl she would always be to him, but as the young lady she was becoming. He then decided.
“It is time to tell you.”
“Tell me what, Father?”
Standing to his feet, he walked to a window overlooking the countryside to the East. His eyes fastened onto the King’s Highway, a straight road that passed high above the village and led to the castle gate.
“Shortly after you were born, I foresaw The Day when you would need someone special–someone with whom to spend your life. I set out to search; to visit other castles in the Kingdom; to find a prince for you. Not just anyone, but that special someone.”
The King turned to look at his Princess, her eyes full of wonderment.
“I have met him. I know who he is.”
“Oh, Father, where does he live? When do I get to meet him?”
“He lives far away, but not so far. In a castle not unlike this one. He, too, is being prepared as you are–both for the other. Come stand beside me, my child.”
She walked to where her Father stood by the window.
“See there? That’s the King’s highway. When the time is right, and not before, he will come on a white steed. You will know him.”
Then taking her hands into his, he looked into her tear brimmed eyes.
“Princess. Never forget you are a child of the King. You are Royalty. The one being prepared for you is also of Royal Descent. Be patient. Prepare. And stay in the castle.”
She hugged the King, jumping into his arms, happy now and determined to prepare and wait. For many months, at night, she looked out her bedroom window, past the village and its sounds to the Highway above, watching and dreaming of the one who would some day come.
A year passed. Then another. The dream became harder to envision, and the night sounds of laughter and glee from the village below again began working their way slowly into her thoughts. It became harder to concentrate on her preparation; harder to be patient.
One morning while taking her breakfast in the Royal Kitchen, a knock was heard at the back door; the door where deliveries were made from the village below. She waited for one of her Father’s servants to answer, but when none immediately did, she decided to answer it herself.
“Hello,” said the young delivery man as he pulled off his crumbled hat and bowed. (It was an exaggerated bow, very low and lasting, followed by a winsome smile.) She couldn’t help but laugh.
“Delivery for his Royal Highness, the King,” he proclaimed with just the slightest shade of irreverence. “And my, but I must say that he has hired some lovely kitchen help, a great improvement indeed!”
“Why, thank you, but I’m not the kitchen help,” she replied blushing, “I’m the King’s daughter.”
“I had heard he had a daughter. But I was never told how beautiful she was! Do you live here all alone with you Father?”
“For now,” she replied, thinking briefly of the now fading story her Father had told her.
He carried the supplies past her into the kitchen. “You ought to come down to the village some night. The lads would be taken with you! Lots of friends your age and wonderful parties.”
“Tell me about the village.”
For an hour they talked, and talked, and laughed. Every story of the village life seemed so full of humor and excitement! He acted out the stories he told and sang a village favorite, dancing merrily to the tune. She could not remember ever laughing so much, and found herself resenting her Father for not allowing her to take part.
“You must come to the village this very night. The Fall Festival begins, and it is the best of the year.”
She glanced awkwardly at the closed kitchen door. “I don’t believe my Father would allow me to attend.”
“Then sneak out after dark. I will meet you at the bridge this side of the village. You’ll have a great time!”
“Perhaps.” She hesitated. “But I can’t promise.”
“I’ll meet you there,” he said, then shut the door and was gone before she could answer.
That evening, she sat with her Father in the Great Room, he reading aloud from the Book of Lessons, and she pretending to be listening. In reality, she was measuring the diminishing light from the setting sun. The distant music began to loft up from the festival below, her imagination going skyward with it. It took several moments before she realized that her Father had stopped reading.
“You seem far away tonight.”
She straightened her dress nervously, “No, just tired I think. Perhaps I should go to bed early.”
“Darling…”
“Really, Father, I’m fine,” she said, quickly getting to her feet. “Good night,” she said back over her shoulder as she scampered up the stairs.
Two hours later, when it was believed that all in the castle were sleeping, a lithe, young figure stole out the kitchen door and disappeared into the night.
Three months later, a slightly older, but much changed Princess marched into the Great Room to announce to her Father the decision she had made on the previous night. Her midnight visits had increased in frequency since that first visit a life time ago. The village night life was more exciting than she had ever dared imagine. The people, though sometimes cruel, laughed and sang and danced and chased each night into dawn. They were living! Living now! Not just waiting for a dream that might never come true.
The young man that had met her the first night had treated her, well, like royalty! In a hundred ways her made her feel special. Then last night, the greatest of all nights of her life, he had proposed to her. She clutched the ring he had slipped onto her finger tightly in her palm, drawing courage from the pain it produced.
“Father, I have something to tell you.”
He sat in his chair, the Book of Lessons on his lap, its pages freshly stained with his tears. She almost lost her resolve.
“I’ve met a young man. I know I shouldn’t have gone without your permission but… anyway, we are going to be married–right away!”
The King shut the Book and stared out towards the Highway. “I watched you go each night, wishing you back.” Then turning His eyes to her and through her. “This castle has never been a prison. This castle is a decision. I want you to know that if you leave here, things will never be the same again. My love for you will never change, but everything– EVERYTHING– else will.”
She wavered for a moment, but only a moment, her head filled now with the village ideas.
“I know that this is what is right for me. He may not be Royalty, but I love him.” And with that, she left the castle.
She woke with the dawn, not knowing that it was a year to the day since her departure. Her back hurt. “Just part of being in your last month of pregnancy,” the village women had told her. Rising with difficulty, her husband muttered something in his half drunken state. He had come home only hours before and they had argued–again. Oh, well, after the baby was born maybe things would get better.
There was still a house to clean and chores to do. Picking up a worn, straw broom, she walked outside to sweep the front porch. Their house was small. It sat at the edge of town, not far from the bridge where he had waited for her that first night. Her eyes followed the path up to her Father’s Castle. The King had still found little ways to show her that he had not forgotten her; that she had still loved. But what he had said was now true. Nothing was the same.
Her eyes wandered to the East to spend a few minutes watching the sun rise, a simple pleasure that she shared alone each morning. Its rays almost blinded her, distorting the trees and hills beyond. Squinting against its brightness, she returned to the job at hand, first glancing absently up the High Road.
Her heart seemed to stop, gripped as if by a strong hand. The broom quivered in her grasp. Far down the road came a white horse, its rider sitting straight and tall. He seemed to be coming straight out of the sun. The horse quickened its pace as it neared the castle, sensing the excitement of its master. Her heart began to beat again, now loud and in rhythm to the pounding hoofs. He reigned his mount to a stop outside the castle’s front gate. She could not make out his features, but his stance spoke of honor and character. He knocked on the front door, her front door not that long ago. The King stepped out to greet him, and she watched as they conversed; watched as the King spoke with his hands, and then pointed toward the village. Involuntarily, she took a step back into the shadow of the porch.
The noble Prince listened carefully, his strong shoulders sagging in disappointment and sadness. Shaking the King’s hand, and receiving from him a consoling hug, he mounted his horse. He looked toward her village home, his eyes finding hers in the shadows. For a moment they both stared. Then, pointing his mount back toward the sun, he rode away into its brightness.
She felt the hot tears on her arms and hands long before it occurred to her that she was crying. “Nothing,” she thought, “Will ever be the same.”
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NOTE: Story written by Jerry Ross. You can purchase the booklet here at: http://tomorrowsforefathers.com/store/courtship.html

Saturday, October 9, 2010

The Treasure (pt1)

The Treasure
Part 1 - The Longing

*Set black*

Narrator: “Deep within all of us lies a longing. It is so deep, we may not even be aware of its existence. We don’t talk about it. We don’t think about it. We can’t really even identify it. But it’s the longing that drives us to no end. Searching high and low, embracing everything, trying to fill the void with anything we can or denying its existence – it’s the longing that was planted within each of us at the very beginning of time.”

*Ease lights into opening scene. It is early morning in a beautiful garden. The tree of the Knowledge of good and Evil is center stage surrounded by other trees, floral shrubby, fawns etc. Running water and birds are heard in the background. Everything is peaceful and Adam and Eve walk on stage hand in hand whispering lover’s sweet nothings. Walking to center stage they pause for a moment, then deciding to take a piece of fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, they both eat. Adam, being second to partake, drops the fruit to the ground, releases Eve’s hand and both briskly walk cautiously off stage as if afraid to be seen. Fade to black.*

* Warm lighting rises on the garden at evening time. Garden is off center of stage and there is now a cave opening bottom stage right. Adam and Eve both walk on stage clothed in fig leaves. Disinterested and making no lover’s revelry in each other they sit down next to a bush stage left.*

Eve: *sadly* “I don’t understand.”
Adam: “We did the one thing He told us not to do, Eve. What don’t you understand?”
Eve: “Well what are we going to do?”
Adam: “I don’t know yet.”
God: *off stage* “Adam? Eve?”
Adam: “Quick!”

*Adam grabs Eve’s hand and runs toward cave bottom stage right*

God: “Where are you?”

*God walks on stage and, seeing Adam and Eve in the cave, approaches them*

Adam: “I heard you in the garden and I was afraid because I was naked. And I hid.”
God: *with confusion* “Who told you you were naked?” *face becomes that of realization*

*Fade to black*

Narrator: “And so it began. In that one act, the longing that would haunt humanity the rest of history was birthed. As time moved on, the longing grew more and more acute. Nations crumbled as brother turned against brother - the void within man growing larger with each object meant to satisfy it. The longing was pressed farther and farther into the recesses of man’s thought in attempts to survive. Dejected, desolate, and dying – humanity continued spiraling in an attempt to grasp the one thing that could restore them to their original standing. The one thing that could fill the longing they tried everything to fill. And yet a sliver of hope pierced the dismal landscape: a promise of redemption - a chance of restoration. Humanity stood. Fearful to hope for this promised deliverance. Eager for its arrival. Waiting.”

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Happy is...

...sunshine waking you up
...butterflies
...mountains
...bubble baths
...closing your eyes, traveling to the opening scene of "The Sound of Music," and dancing in the field with Maria
...reading the Bible and losing track of time
...listening to the leaves fall and chatter as they race across the ground
...going barefoot in a field
...a walk on a dirt path through a green forest infused with light
...a sunset view from the mountains
...water lapping, flowing, running, and rushing all other thoughts from your mind
...wooden bridges and botanical gardens
...the smell of evergreens
...the warmth of the sunshine seeping through your clothes and caressing your skin
...the sound of the wind
...nature - clouds, trees, plants, flowers, cliffs
...sky above and road below
...lying on your back under the black velvet sky watching diamonds fly
...weather that's just a little too cool for a tshirt
...bazaars, festivals, and fairs
...the change of seasons
...crickets chirping and fireflies dancing
...open windows with laughter floating in
...windows down and music blaring
...a lyric, quote, or thought that embodies the moment in life perfectly
...torrents of rain on the window pane and a blanket
...a book by the fire
...that sparkle in your eye
...fabrics of all kinds
...a cross stitch
...the smell of new books
...laughter
...the hallmark store
...a library
...paisley
...seeing you happy
...a day with my best friend
...inside joys (rather than "jokes")
...trying on formal gowns
...pictures
...starbucks
...piano music
...time
...love
...talking til 1am
...just being with you
...sharing your joy
...dress up
...fun socks
...taking time to be a child and play with dolls
...slippers and pjs
...knowing I can - and I don't have to
...hitting snooze and curling back up with snoopy
...pillows
...trusting God when I don't know
...seeing someone let a man or woman in uniform go first
...dark chocolate
...a new bath product
...a new nail polish
...a new hair cut
...scarves
...hats
...jackets and coats
...innocence
...a child at a park
...a random call to/from grandparents
...a nap
...a clean room and clean laundry
...being surprised
...sitting alone in a sanctuary with stained glass windows
...visiting historical sights
...early morning on a lake
...a crisp night in a tent
...Easter morning
...candy corn and hayrides
...Christmas eve
...Christmas lights
...4th of July
...accomplishing something with pride
...a perfect shot - golf or handgun
...living

and so much more.